Updates

I'm glad that the 4AM rehearsals are done and completed. Truthfully, I like this 4am shift, knowing the fact that I will be able to sign out and go home at 2PM when everybody else is still working. Time passes really fast when you're doing this shift too. But having to wake up at 2AM in the morning is the reason I feel reluctant to do this particular shift. Glad that Phase 1 Rehearsals are done and also glad that Phase 2 Rehearsals would not take place at 4AM.

Have been handling my insecurities for the past months and really considered getting rid of my insecurities, literally. I'm scared, I keep seeing scary images that I do not want to happen to myself. It bugs me so much that I wish that our insecurities can be gone with a push of a button. 

I also wish that bad habits can be gone the same way. Have been trying to kick a bad habit of mine off and I regretted even starting it. It's true, it's hard to kick off a bad habit. It's hard to get used to not doing what you usually do. I need help, and I need time away from the environment that is, in a way, encouraging me to continue this habit of mine.