Rant

How on earth am I suppose to rely on you guys anymore? You both are my pillars, yet the pillars I'm leaning on to aren't able to support me. What is this? So much for nagging about 'showing a good example to others' to us all yet you don't practice what you preach. Tired of this nonsense already. And stop questioning me about my job, I should have the right to question you about yours. Sick and tired of listening to these nonsensical stuff every damn month. I have no idea how the heck I am going to get by in the future. I am practically living on my own now, I don't even ask  much from you these days. Don't say "I understand where you are coming from" when you actually don't. I have plead from you, something I am shameful of doing. That was how desperate I am. 

Now I need you. Where the hell have you been? This ain't the first time this has happened. Have said it once, said it again from time to time and all I get is an useless apology. What is the use of an apology if you don't keep your words? What is the use of an apology if you keep making the same mistake over and over again? I suggest you keep your mouth shut and open it once again when you have something useful to say. Something I can actually rely on.