The 2013 Summary

Every year begins with newly-made resolutions, some we abide to, some forgotten and chucked away like a scrunched up piece of used tissue in a bag, only to be rediscovered again in the future. Some of us would have already have plans or goals to be achieved for that year, the remaining number of us would just watch them, pondering about their own life and what they're going to do about it.

Of course everybody has gone through that phase of "I'm going to make a new year resolution and keep my word on this one." which always ends up forgotten or we just can't be bothered to keep up with. I, personally, do not remember my own new year resolution of 2013, but I knew I had one. Whatever it was, I am definitely doing a bad job fulfilling it.

What I do remember are the little bits and pieces of memories of my 2013 experience, the bad ones, the good ones. I've had a fair share of my negative emotions being thrown here in this space. But then again, these bad emotions and experiences prep me to get back up stronger.

The Relationship

Falling in love is a lot easier than how falling out of love is like. Both, however, could happen at once without you even noticing it coming. The latter, of course, causes you to deal with a whole lot of consequences, most of them dealing with your emotions.

Being in such a rocky relationship just proved me wrong about how little I can take. It showed me how capable I am to be even stronger than how I assumed I am. Handling the dramas taught me some life lessons, all of which I can't list down right now for it will turn this blog post into a Lord of the Rings-ish novel.

I prefer to keep the relationships that I bond with to be private and low profile. Imagine letting the entire country's population know about your relationship with a certain someone and when things do not work out and then everyone starts asking you about your 'significant other', you start feeling all the pent up frustration or sadness overwhelming you and soon you find yourself bawling your eyes out.

Apart from that, I just do not like the idea of people poking their nose into my business and it annoys me to the extent that I feel like shutting myself out from the entire world. I feel that everyone is entitled to their own privacy and everybody else should respect it.

Being a single lady right now, it feels good that I do not have extra commitments and such, though I do miss having a special someone to confide to by my side. Not saying that I do not have friends to confide in, I do, but having someone else special by your side who adores you for who you are is great too. Someone whom you can trust.


Trust Issues

I tend to be so easily attached to people, especially to people I just got to know. I have the tendency to trust people too easily, giving too many second chances and being too forgiving. I get advise like "Forgive but don't forget." but due to the fact that I am too forgiving, I forget about what other people are capable of doing. I find myself getting disappointed over and over again by the same people, and yet I wonder why the same situation repeats itself.

It irks me that I have to live life second-guessing everyone and contemplating on who I should and shouldn't trust.

Wrong Choices

It is inevitable that we make the wrong choices once in a while. The temptation of doing something beyond our comfort levels managed to entice us into creating some sort of spice into our lives, knowing perfectly well the consequences that we have to live with right after. Of course I have given in to impulses like these, bearing difficult consequences. I can't do anything but regret some of the decisions that I've made. If undoing an action is possible, I would have done it a long time ago.

Frenemies

As each day goes by we meet new people, make new friends, even enemies. I've met a lot of new people, especially after having this job in the theme park. I learnt of different behaviors and personalities. First impressions are always the roots of the path that you intend to take with the people you meet, whether you feel that you are bound to create happy moments with them, or to take the opposite step away from them.

First impressions always create a huge impact on me, and most of the time, it helps me learn of one's characteristics. However, there are times when I misinterpret a certain person. There are times when I simply do not like this person based on the first impression that they have portrayed towards me. And me, being too forgiving and lenient, I give these people a second chance, and turns out that they aren't so bad after all.

Another scenario I encounter countless of times is the one that leads to disappointment. These people are the ones whom I have taken a liking from the beginning of the time I met them. They are the ones whom I had high expectations for. These are the same people whom I was let down and felt the most disappointed with.



With the cliched "Hopefully the new year will be good to me" statement ending this post, I truly do hope that this upcoming new year will be a much better year for me. Come what may, I'm prepared to knock 2014 off its feet.